Wednesday, April 8, 2015

My First Gay Phone Call - Help

 
I can't say exactly what it's like for every gay man wanting to reach out to another gay man for the first time and not being able to.  I've been there, but it's been some time.  I do know saying "it's hard" doesn't quite describe it. It's loneliness, sadness, depression and hopelessness swirled into one.

I also want to ad that it doesn't get easy connecting after we've come out sometimes, especially for those who did it on their own.  We can be under the impression that, after we reveal a part of what we are, it's like turning on the lighthouse light.  The LGBT community will see us and suddenly everything will be perfect, ships of gay men and women will come to shore.  Not quite.  In fact, I'm guessing for most of us, nothing happens.  We're still alone and after taking such a big leap our yearning to be connected is even stronger.  Still, it remains unfulfilled.

What I would like to do in the future is make my phone number available for other gay men to call if interested in talking with someone.

This post was updated 3/17/17.

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It's Time to Cut the Strings

 
 
It's time to cut the strings.
No longer will I let someone tell me what I'm capable of - what I can do.
I may seem strange.
To some, I'm a freak.
but from now on, I'm not listening, when they say, I'm not normal.
I am.  Or more likely, I'm better than normal.
Cut more strings.
I can live a righteous life.
Cheating, lying, and plotting against someone is not the only way to navigate this world.
I may not have a good example.
But I can be an example to myself by taking the hard road less followed.
Often stumbling, but getting stronger with each lesson.
I can be an example to others.
I am beautiful.
Maybe I don't meet the criteria to be fit for a magazine.
But honestly when I look at myself in the mirror I see perfection.
Outside of what I perceive others may think of me.
Perfectly flawed, perfectly imperfect. The real me.
When I'm not looking so great. 
It's because other peoples thoughts about beauty are swirling through my head.
No more.
Continuing to cut strings.
My spirit was not made with a cookie cutter.
I'm not one with a political party.
I'm not a democrat, a republican,
nor will I throw away my rights
or be forced to choose between things I don't want
Nor will I sit and wait for someone to help me.
I will help those around me no matter what background they have.
I'll do this under the belief that together we can all live prosperously
loving one another, we will never want.
No one will be poor.
I will treat others like I would like to be treated.
All things that I would like someone to do for me. 
I will do for someone else.
Cutting more strings.
I don't have judge anyone unless I was appointed to do so.
Therefore I will not judge unless it my duty to do so.
The measurement that I use to judge someone
may be the same measurement someone uses to judge me.
Last but not least. 
I can live without a personal love.
I can accept it, if I find it.
But I can live without it.
There will be much love in my future.
Enough to fill me.
It will come from me.
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